The darkness of a soul that lost its way

When I started this series, I was transitioning from glee fanfiction. I chose to keep the Mckinley shooting because it represented a hard line I could build from. Over time as I moved forward and back, I discovered how horrible that event would be. Today is a reminder of how deep the pain, sorrow, lost, anger, hate and reaction is.

Fifty people who were at a nightclub lost their lives in a brutal shooting by a man filled with hate. Yes, he identified with Islam with hates LGBTIQ passionately. However, those who knew him said that was more him tying himself to Daesh than them doing anything. We call them Islamic State of Iraq and the Levant (ISIL) or ISIS, the s meaning syria, but they are a terrorist group, that kills anyone who disagrees with them. Hell they even detonated a bomb in from for the gravesite of the granddaughter of Mohammad himself.

These fifty people who lost their life weren’t bad people. They didn’t deserve to die. Yet, they did. The cycle continues. Why does it? This is why?


Something needs to change. Our solution is simple:

  1. Its not gun control. Guns aren’t the problems. Banning them won’t solve it because we have never had a successful ban. Alcohol? No. We even had a contitutional admendment for that. It was repealed. Drugs? No. Ilicit drug trade is prospering. Why do we think, weapons would work? Its foolish in the extreme. Forcing it would lead to civil war and more bloodshead.
  2. However, because we have guns apleanty and the ability to us them we need to be responsible. Like Christine Grimmie was murdered because there were no metal detectors. (and dude was insane). AR-15s have no business in civilian hands period. They don’t need to be sold. Every single one should be trackable, and only in the hands of Law enforcement . (the military already has access, its the m-16) The horrible truth is the man/woman who sold the ar-15 is as guilty of the murders as the gunman is.

This belong is from the wikipedia entry for the AR-15 to explain why civilians should’nt have access to this type of firearm.

The AR-15 is a military and civilian gas-operated rifle that has been produced in many different versions. The term “AR-15” was chosen by Colt for the civilian models it produced after selling the rifle to the US military as the M16 rifle, and many people and references use the term “AR-15” exclusively for civilian models. This article discusses the original design for military users and its major variants, however they are labeled. AR-15 rifles are lightweight, magazine-fed, air-cooled, fire an intermediate cartridge, and are manufactured with extensive use of aluminum alloys and synthetic materials.

The AR-15 was first built in 1959 by ArmaLite as a small arms rifle for the United States armed forces. Because of financial problems, ArmaLite sold the design to Colt. After some modifications, the redesigned rifle was adopted as the M16 rifle. In 1963, Colt started selling the semi-automatic version of the rifle for civilians designated as the Colt SP1. Although the name “AR-15″ remains a Colt registered trademark, variants of the firearm are made, modified, and sold under various names by multiple manufacturers.

Most AR-15 rifles have a barrel threaded in 1⁄2”-28 threads to incorporate the use of a muzzle device such as a flash suppressor, sound suppressor or muzzle brake.[28] The initial design had three tines or prongs and was prone to breakage and getting entangled in vegetation. The design was later changed to close the end to avoid this problem. Eventually, on the A2 version of the rifle, the bottom port was closed to reduce muzzle climb and prevent dust from rising when the rifle was fired in the prone position.[29] For these reasons, the US military declared this muzzle device a compensator, but it is more commonly known as the “GI” or “A2” flash suppressor.[30]

Flash suppressors are designed to reduce the muzzle flash from the weapon to preserve the shooter’s night vision. A flash suppressor does not improve the ballistic performance of a rifle or make it more lethal, but some jurisdictions have banned or severely restrict usage of flash suppressors. In most of these areas, AR-15 shooters have installed muzzle brakes or compensators on their rifles.

The threaded barrel allows sound suppressors with the same thread pattern to be installed directly to the barrel, however this can result in complications such as being unable to remove the suppressor from the barrel.[31] A number of suppressor manufacturers have turned to designing “direct-connect” sound suppressors which can be installed over an existing flash suppressor as opposed to using the barrel’s threads.

These were the bullets used to kill those people. They can travel a mile and can punch through people like a knife through softened butter.

5.56×45mm NATO compared to .50 Beowulf cartridges.

The 5.56×45mm NATO standard SS109/M855 cartridge was designed for maximum performance when fired from a 508 mm (20.0 in) long barrel, as was the original 5.56 mm M193 cartridge. Experiments with longer length barrels up to 610 mm (24.0 in) resulted in no improvement or a decrease in muzzle velocities for the SS109/M855 cartridge. Shorter barrels produce a greater flash and noise signature, and the addition of a suppressor to a short barreled AR family rifle can make it unreliable, as the reduced time for the propellant to burn in the barrel and higher muzzle pressure levels at the suppressor entrance can cause faster cycling and feeding issues. Unless the gas port can be regulated or adjusted for higher pressures, suppressors for short barreled 5.56×45mm NATO firearms must be larger and heavier than models for standard length rifles to function reliably. SS109/M855 cartridges fired from barrels under about 254 mm (10.0 in) in length do not have enough muzzle velocity energy to cause bullet fragmentation that occurs only at terminal velocities of over 750 m/s (2,500 ft/s) on impact, reducing the wounding capacity.[26][27]

To be brief, this states that in war theater, the bullets perform substandard because they don’t fragment. They punch through. So why exactly is a weapon that is designed for war theater use available to the general public. Because we let it.

I support NRA and believe in gun use and training. I believe in legal gun purchases and defending out castle. I don’t believe you need a weapon that will fail to yaw and fragment when the bullets pass through only minimal tissue, such as a limb or the chest of a thin, small statured individual, as the bullet will exit the body before it has a chance to yaw and fragment.

So I described why the AR-15 sales need to end.  Now back to other things. Omar hated LBGTQI people. LBGTQI people don’t deserve hate. As a christian, I am commanded to love my fellow brothers and sisters. Paul the apostle wrote in the letter to the corinthian church (using the message bible translation)

“If I speak with human eloquence and angelic ecstasy but don’t love, I’m nothing but the creaking of a rusty gate.

 If I speak God’s Word with power, revealing all his mysteries and making everything plain as day, and if I have faith that says to a mountain, “Jump,” and it jumps, but I don’t love, I’m nothing.

If I give everything I own to the poor and even go to the stake to be burned as a martyr, but I don’t love, I’ve gotten nowhere. So, no matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do, I’m bankrupt without love.

Love never gives up.
Love cares more for others than for self.
Love doesn’t want what it doesn’t have.
Love doesn’t strut,
Doesn’t have a swelled head,
Doesn’t force itself on others,
Isn’t always “me first,”
Doesn’t fly off the handle,
Doesn’t keep score of the mistakes and failures of others,
Doesn’t revel when others grovel,
Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,
Puts up with anything,
Trusts God always,
Always looks for the best,
Never looks back,
But keeps going to the end.

Love never fails.”

Nowhere did Jesus or the disciples ever say hate anyone especially those who are homosexual. It said that it was a sin. It also said that anything outside of love was also a sin. Finally, it said that the only sin that people could be separated from God was not receieving Jesus.

So i said all of this to be clear, ANYONE who tries to murder others in the name of Jesus or under the banner of christianity isn’t one, and has never been one. I am sure that the moderate muslims would say the same but for them they have a deeper problem. Quran speaks of murdering others for glory. I won’t go into that because this isnt the place for it.

Which brings me to the that last points.


  1. MTV is a hypocrite. They speak on twitter of supporting Orlando and the LGBTQI community. However, they don’t. They canceled Faking it. They celebrate Scream.
  2. Scream is about murdering teens. Doubt me? Watch it. I did. Its well written, well acted but its horror about murdering teens. Do we really need this? No.
  3. If MTV wanted to do something for the community they could do something like HBO did when they were shooting Luck (a show about horse tracks and horse racing). Two horses broke their legs and had to be put down. Rather than handwave it away, they canceled the show. Rating were high for it but they did it anyway. So #killMTVscream
  4. I would like anyone who sees this to tweet that. Take all that money and dump it into Faking it. Let carter do a movie to finish the series. Show they actually support LGBTQI .

Finally, about the stories. As I said earlier Faking it is too far forward of my main storyline to be in the current books. I don’t plan on doing anything with the ladies until I finish those. This means, I need to finish Heartbeat song, Song of Restoration, Taiji and Song of the Gyre. That last one is the new title for Center cannot hold as that story is to far as it stands from why my story is now.

To be clear though, Midnight train song is the first book in the series. The current final story is ‘We saw the dream’ which does involve the Tom and Gwen. As does Amy’s journals. I don’t want to post them there because only 2 involve the assembly.

Nevertheless, Heartbeat song will use alot of what happened yesterday. Its my only truly dark book because I need to address the Taft school shooting. Perhaps I can make a change where we can’t.

Thanks for reading. Supporting me and keeping the faith. Love is louder. Never forget that.


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